my name is...

It's been a while...

2006-12-14T11:38:00.000-08:00

path2light2
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

so it's December - the last time we were here was what... October?
Yeah i think so.

What's been going on?
To be honest there are days where I really [really] don't know. Time lapsed... I lapsed. I've just been 'feeling' in and out of it. Nevertheless,
I am here and God is [still] Love.

What's been going on with you?
Film. Oh my gosh that's been like so wonderful lately! I did a small television course and from there bought my very own sony handy cam... uh, camera.

I've got one done [intelligent lifeforms] working on th other [restrain yourself] and there's the one we did in school which i wrote and produced called JUST WAITING... twas my first one really. They're all shorts [really] but I'm loving it right now.

So what's the plans? What you thinking?
I wanna do seven film projects next yr. The more I do, the more adept i can become - i'm thinking film school - nyfa [new york film academy] so [needless to say] I have to be good.

Right now I eagerly wait to see what God has instore for me [next]. The Universe is truly a great place to live.

Anyways, I'm back and I'm here. May not see me everyday but still... I'm here.

Blessings Bloggers

2006-10-30T08:59:00.000-08:00

so yesterday...
cleaned out my closets [funny]
found some old clothes that i don't wear anymore
but i couldn't let them go.
I mean i just... couldn't... let the... go!

But i did :-)
it hurt some but i let them go

What are you holding on to or hiding in your closets?

tracy J hutchings

2006-10-10T05:35:00.000-07:00

Unpack Your Adjectives

I woke up. Today feels like a [insert] day
Trafiic may have been a [insert] nightmare
but God is still a [insert] God
and I intend to live this [insert] day like it is [insert]

There is nothing this [insert] universe can do to upset me.
because I am God's [insert] child - [insert] as I am.

I woke up... What a [insert] morning!

Peace/Blessings
T.J.H

2006-09-18T08:11:00.000-07:00

You are my equal.
You are my opposite.
You are dark knight to my sunny disposition
I am the ship, you are my beacon.

I broke my wrist at six
And skinned my knees at seven.
I sat around the TV watching talking dogs go up to heaven.
Only…
Only, it wasn’t me. It was he.
The me from a different life-stream.

You felt the music crawl into bed with you.
You felt the hunger have its way with you.
You felt it… bubbling, bubbling, burgeoning till all you could do was
BURST! Joy.
You felt ‘for better or worse’ half a dozen times.
I lived your life; you walked through mine.
My immortality; your humanity.

We are one.
Equal.
Opposite.
You are my science; I am your faith

You speak with the power of my thoughts
I understand your (gasps) and (nods) and…
My no-more-greater-that-I. WE.
Equal portions of the same pie
Seeing things from different eyes but locked
to the same face… same race. Human.
By definition.
By association.

He, She, It, Is, WE EQUAL.

Tracy J Hutchings
17:09:06

Fiction(?)

2006-09-05T11:25:00.000-07:00

red horizon
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

I have a thing...
My characters have an annoyng habit of coming to life.

There's this novel i've been writing like forever and ever so often, situations and/or people appear in my universe bearing a strange resemblance to characters from said novel.

The latest installment comes in the form of a newbie who reminds me of one of my main characters Mercer, MercerStone.

Writer/Artist, music enthusiast, looks-like-rockstar-but-not and recently graduated from the exact shcool I've pitched Mercer in. And then there's other similarities - minus one [chuckle].

I'm almost waiting to see how this real life one measures up to the fictional one...

Blessings

Fiction(?)

2006-09-05T11:23:00.000-07:00

red horizon
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

2006-08-30T06:24:00.000-07:00

In - dependence.

Tomorrow pls God we celebrate
44 years of independence.

And we shall celebrate with fireworks and fan-fare.
And we shall celebrate with wine and vodka; champagne and cola.
And we shall celebrate our "triumphs"... all that we, the big Trinidad & Tobago have done.
And we shall litter the streets with red and the newspapers with patriotic messages... because
WE ARE THE INDEPENDENT!

And then Friday, we will return to our lives dependent
On the police
On the politician
On the priest
On other people instead of the POWER.

Independent or In dependence?

T.j.H

2006-08-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

Good, Gooder & Goodest Moments

Laughing at Dave Chapelle Audio Tape.
Just got permission to shoot film in Airport.
Back pain lessened a bit.
Still laughing...

Good, Gooder & Goodest Moments

2006-08-15T12:02:00.000-07:00

As it turns out...
The Universe Still Works

Last night I got the shock of my life.

My friend showed me my birthday present [that she's had for me since last yr]. I thought it to be some book or the like [she knows me] instead it was a computer - she bought a new G4 laptop so she passed me her other machine.

Now... up to two Saturdays ago I'm complaining. I had reached the end and to top it off, I got ideas and stuff to do [freelance and other] and no machine at home to work it out.

Yet God was moving the Universe in my favour. It was already decided.

The Universe... is still... working in YOUR FAVOR, guided by The Master Way Maker, even if it doesn't look like it right now. Believe that.

B.C.N.U.

100... +

2006-08-10T11:07:00.000-07:00

red horizon
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Today marks my 100th post.
It would've come a lot sooner had I written every day but...

I wonder, should I say something of profound importance to celebrate this point? Or does my mere existance here [in a way] celebrate the hundredth?

Well, God is Love. I'm alive yet another day to continue my rantings
:-)>

Happy 100th, Blog

It is finished [or is it broken?]

2006-08-07T12:59:00.000-07:00

blue beauty
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

When I bought my new Cross/Crucifix pendant a while back, I was in two (2) minds about it. The recurring thought was like "Don't you have enough crosses in your life already. Don't buy it."

Well, yesterday while at Mt. Saint Benedict, my chain slid off my neck and the cross broke into two pieces - THE END.

And I honestly wonder 'bout that. Is it:
1. The end of my crosses/my burdens? A new day begins?
2. A physical sign of my broken spirituality?

I feel so far from where I started off at times, it scares me, it depresses me... it's downright annoying. Now I tell myself that maybe the uncomfortability is just... growing into a new skin but jeez!

So yes, I do wonder if It is Finished or rather is it (am I) Broken

2006-08-04T05:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I spoke to one of those dates
(see yesterday's post, scroll down).
And yes, things could've been different between us.
But truthfully, she was coming out of a failed relationship.
And you can't love someone new if you haven't learned
to love yourself truly.

So it's cool. There's closure.
That chapter is through...
The End

2006-08-03T11:39:00.000-07:00

Let's hear it for another stupid blunder!

Let's hear it for the guy who sees the girl at the awards event
says nothing
does nothing
only to hear
she found someone on that night... been together couple yrs now.

Let's hear it for the guy who makes the move
worships the countess
offers his soul
to receive outer darkness in return.

Let's hear it for the guy who sees the girl
falls for the girl
moves in riddles and proverbs towards the girl
but wait... she sees something in the distance - a love? someone who will spill it out plainly?

Let's hear it for:
2002 Awards
March 15th 2005
September into December 2005
April 2006
and all the misguided, misjudged, misinterpreted, misrepresented dates of things...
better left unspoken.

[applause]

2006-07-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

I couldn't be satisfied

I was an ideas person...
I couldn't be satisfied, so I became a poet.

I was a poet...
I couldn't be satisfied, so I became a writer.

I was a writer...
I couldn't be satisfied, so I dabbled in photography.

I was a photographer...
I couldn't be satisfied, so I am in television production.

And the thoughts keep coming...

I have four years of documented poetry. I have an unfinished poetry cd [still in development]. I have one finished manuscript and a good couple finished short stories. Wrote some small films [need to produce]. Writing a couple feature film screen plays and a soap opera. Oh! Must we forget the children's book I'm in the middle of?
I dabble in Dostoyevsky, Gibran, Quaran, Comic Book History... and more.

What now? What to do to satify this need to do...

2006-07-14T05:54:00.000-07:00

some days are better than others...
but it's good to know that your best days... are still yet to come.

Blessings World

Pin-Pointing You

2006-07-04T09:59:00.000-07:00

pinpointing sound
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Who are You
sitting there in the shadows, watching the birds fly high in the morning's sun and wishing... wishing you knew... who are you.

Who are You
anouncing your presence with drums and clanging symbols impressing everyone... but yourself, wondering... who are you.

Who are You
splitting your sides to laughter that covers the tears that burst out moments earlier, saying funny things, funny stories, aiming to please but please... who are you.

Who are You
trying to be. coming to come. reconciling the mirror so a full, straight, complete picture is available to the not-so-general-public... YOU.

Who are You again?

I Smell Yesterday

2006-06-22T11:27:00.000-07:00

P1010033
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

I smell yesterday
Sweet 'n' Sour Contentment
Floral Patterns of Joy
Bubble Gum Laughter

Fishy..
The smell... the cursings
That brings Lemon-Lime Tears
Bubbling to the surface from bottled domains...

Fruity Fashion
Passion
Fruit
Awards..

Spectrum of Scents fighting for the mind's eye
I
Smell
Yesterday
Savor the Sweetness

Let the angels minister to you

2006-06-06T07:43:00.000-07:00

angel
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

"And the angels came and ministered unto Him..."

The story goes of Christ being tempted by the devil. And after defeating the tempter [and the temptations], the ANGELS came and ministered/took care/soothed Him.

It hits me that this man was fasting for 40 days/nights and was hungry [and I suspect dreadfully tired] but with whatever little strength He had left... He held out and His angels came and soothed Him.

My point is this: Hold out just a little while longer. Resist the urge to do/become whatever. In the end, your angels [though unseen] will attend to your situation. They are there for a reason... hold on, hold out for a little while longer.

2006-06-01T12:08:00.000-07:00

A B C D… X Factor
Untraceable
Implacable
Nothing but something…
No bottom to this ocean
Tread lightly
Cold waters are a front till you dive in
To find
To discover
How cool these currents are

Chill. Chill Factor.
Cool not cold
Sharp not stinging intellectual
Sustenance or
Food for thought
Sit a while
Stay a while
Maybe she could
Transform
Transform
Nothing into something
Transform
Transform
Arbitrary into Amazing

Mythos
Word Spoken
Word heard?
Word understood?
She?
The frame that speaks, but do they listen?
How can they, locked in their own cents
Money is the root of their evil ways
Though spoken is the truth
But is it heard?
Is it understood?
Is she?

Drunken sense
Drunken vibes
Fill your cup but dip lightly
Go lightly
Speak softly
Truthfully
To the truth that knows your lies
She
The A, B, C, D… X Factor
The Chill Factor
The Mythos
Creative
The girl
The soul
The spirit
Reflectively reflecting what God gave her
Dra

2006-05-31T10:13:00.000-07:00

Imitation

pull the tag back
as the fabric unravels
to reveal that sometimes life isn’t authentic.

pay less for the cheapness,
the sheer unrealness
‘cause what be the point of shelling out your soul
for a slice of authenticity when
you can have that for half that!

see the thread?
pull harder to realise
the hidden agenda.

for a smile was never a smile
just a cloth
just a stitch
we wore a while.

but now the snickers start
and the laughter grows
as everyone finally realises
finally knows, that you’re clothed deep in imitation
and it’s hard to hide as you mumble
an “i’m sorry” to the DESIGNER you tried to rip off.

© t.j.h

2006-05-31T09:54:00.000-07:00

Saving You

What I wouldn't give to save you
from the YOU that hurts your head
and burns your heart
and waters your eyes
and lumps up your throat...
like strong drink

What I wouldn't give to save you.
For saving you just might mean saving me.

2006-05-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

She
She is he
Adding soul to he
Adding soul to he
Adding spirit to me

She
Governess
Mistress
Deliverance
Deliver us
A woman
A tribe bearer
A trial bearer
A symbol labelled with a capital S
She

Most definitely
The womb
Blessed by Divine He
To lead us into and out of temptation
Into redemption
Positive mental elevation
She be...
She

16:05:06

2006-05-23T05:48:00.000-07:00

I'm Back!
And... I'm Black (chuckling to self for no real reason)

I was sick for a lil while and thus also... tired.

But I'm here and I'm cool. Just watching the universe watching me a bit.

Blessings to You All

A moment of silence 03

2006-05-03T05:37:00.000-07:00

path2light2
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

This moment of silence will be pre-empted
For a traffic jam:
“Move __! Get out the way! Get out the way___! Get out the way!”
Rock the boat
Make some noise
Honk at the police, the trailer, and the traffic light…
Fight for your right to be ignorant!

A moment of silence 02

2006-04-27T09:33:00.000-07:00

ria smoking
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

This moment of silence is brought to you
By Sudafed!
Take 5
Not 2, but 5 before going to bed
And zone out
And zone out
The head filled with deadlines and bottom lines
And forget the alarm song… in your head
Nothing wrong with waking up at ten… instead!
To be Continued

A moment of silence 01

2006-04-24T10:18:00.000-07:00

tusca
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

This moment of silence will be
interrupted by
a pager
a cell-phone
a beeper
a 500 channels...
a universal remote
CLICK!

To Be Continued

2006-04-21T12:30:00.000-07:00

Probably The Best News Whole Day

My friend Elspeth is building a lamp
She is called Diva
Diva continues to unfold into herself
She is beautiful...

(find out everything about Diva at www.nowiswow.blogspot.com)

El needed a few pieces of poetry that would line with Diva...
My goodness! Those I read were like.... wow!
Everyone got so much out of Diva

One of my pieces has been selected for Diva
And given the Aura of the day...
Seriously, that's probably the best news of the day!

Correction, that is the best news I've had all day.

God is amazing. It's really the "little things" that make a dent,
that cause a smile...
that makes a difference in someone else's life.

Peace

Blessings El...

2006-04-19T08:00:00.000-07:00

Vices

The beer monger is called Scorned
While we continue, to get drunk off our own delusions.

The weed maker and the pill taker are dubbed Diseased and Problematic
While it is we who constantly get high on the dark side of the coin
The flip-flop of Life.

The madman is called Outcast
While we continually get insanely jealous of our brother’s success…
Not that we, lifted a finger to his aid
Or held the ladder to he was climbing.

And so in this late great twenty-first Century
We seldom see
The devices,
The vices we often habitualise…
Looking outward at the sawdust that the wind blows
instead of inward,
where the sawmill burns record amounts… daily.

T.j.H
26:02:05

2006-04-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

Holding your Tongue...
is [chuckling] a full... body... work-out!

No Really it is!

Last night, something happened that comforted me
[though it was not really directed at me].
In no uncertain words, The Lord God spoke and I vowed,
vowed not to complain ever again!

I asked Him that if ever I start to complain, remind me of the feeling I felt last night - feelings of breathing easier
It will shut me up...

And now the point

Arguing, complaining, snapping back [at times] can be the easiest thing to do. It is so second nature to just retort, to just shake off restraint and slap the tongue around. Indeed, the Bible itself [James] says that the tongue could be a fire set abaze by hell itself.

So me, shutting up and walking away now [returning to peace] is going to be a full bodied work-out that I will master!
In the end... silence is a consent to peace.

2006-04-13T11:21:00.000-07:00

It Is Easter

Time for Rememberance
Time for Resurection...

Are you... YOU resurected?
Body?
Soul
Spirit...
Are you... YOU resurected?

Easter Blessings

Imagination

2006-04-10T09:56:00.000-07:00

swirl
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

I am testing my imagination today.
It is not fate. It is not truth.
It is Imagination...

Last week I was in turmoil and as I was standing there in the Office's Kitchen and I heard: "Death is standing at the door."

I turned and in my mind... my imagination... I saw a guy [like me] causually leaning at the door legs crossed, arms folded et al.

I don't know how, but later that night i replayed the scene and I could've sworn I saw the guy... me, dressed in one of my favourite outfits. I blame it on 2 much imagination.

So here I am!
Monday morning, wearing my black shirt and my blue jeans wondering What's the point of this?

The mind is a heck of a thing!

2006-03-27T09:02:00.000-08:00

The Calmest Calm...

The calmest calm in two weeks happened on Saturday...
I bought film for my camera
:-) :-)

2006-03-24T05:37:00.000-08:00

Today's Weather Report

Sea Me
Fair to Fine
Finally

No isolation
Thunder storms gone
Thunder storms gone
Thunder storms gone around the block and back again!

Chest Shaking
EARTH - QUAKING IN ITS BOOTS
Cycles of cyclones
Tears that rain
Tears that rain
Tears that reign...

Snap out of it!
Seek the Son
Light, Right breeze...
Warmth not Drought
Warmth not Drought
Cause I need it...

2006-03-21T03:54:00.000-08:00

Today in The Universe (Special Mystic TV Report)

COMMENCE REPORT:
In the space of one weekend I have moved from Complete Adoration to Confounded Annulment.
I am mystified. Beyond belief I am mystified by the turn of events. The annoying thing about all of this is that I had a sneaky suspicion that something was amiss but... I discarded the thought, I didn't listen to the
Voice of Protection. In retrospect, God had sent me clues, people with wisdom - correction a person with wisdom... one of my best friends, the R.

I had thought that this one was worth waiting for. Was worth fighting for. Was worth transformation for. Transformation? Why would you want to transform for a mortal? Because I thought she was the one instead of one-of-many.

It seems to be a going trend of mine to give my heart away to the wrong person. And I don't just mean a girl. Time after time you go out of your way/stand up for/protest with and pray for people... friends in need, only to be kicked in return. It is for this reason, I am beginning the eradication process of the cancers in my life.

I wil be the first to admit that in the beginning I may have moved prematurely. But having learned from that - or THINKING that I had learned from that [chuckle] I now moved with patience and timing, setting my sights on a future goal - August...

August would be the culmination of things where decisions would be made and things revealed.
August would be the make or break.
August was where all my intentions were set.
Of course, now August has gone from me. All my love, all my strength, all my... whatever dissapearred. It is just another month in the year.

I really thought that we were getting closer. Little things started to manifest itself and I felt "right! proceed to August!" - yeah right.
I really thought that my intentions were in the very least appreciated - I know differently now [chuckle].
I really thought that the fear that I felt in the back of my throat was unwarranted. It was in fact justifiable. Classic really.
I really thought... above everything else... that I was wise. Not arrogantly wise but, I mean at least fairly, right?
SHE has proven otherwise.
SHE has proven otherwise.
END REPORT

Remembering... him

2006-03-14T10:47:00.000-08:00

angel
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

these are my confessions

Abri-el

I dreamed I was taken
from my window and
ascended upwards,
upwards to the vast universe.

He was there, walking
with me. Taking me upon
a starry, glassy staircase
higher... and higher.
I was comforted. I looked
down and my fear of heights
returned to me. So he placed
a soft cloth over my eyes and
we continued. Me following blindly.

And he told me his name...
a honey dipped melody
Abri - el

Over and over Abri - el
I pray that name be blessed
always............

tracy .j. hutchings
07:04:03

So about a yr later, I find out that he was one of the seven Angel Princes that was kicked out of Heaven (he actually was the sixth prince). I felt like a fool. I was devastated for weeks.

There's still a part of me that yet believes that his full meaning is undiscovered but i can't shake the fright I felt when i learned the truth about this here angel.

Behold The Angels (?)
Beware The Angels (?)

2006-03-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

Carnival Confessions

It happened this way.

For the first time in my twenty-four years in the universe I wanted to give it all up to be with her. Just to be with her and this would be all well and wonderful if I knew… if I knew but I’m not too sure. I’m just not too sure.

It happened this way.

Carnival week, me, getting into my music and everything was fine. I had planned since the beginning of the year that if I didn’t take vacation round carnival I’d just laze around anyways with a stack of dvds, some snacks and a book. Or two. Or maybe I’d finally pick up my regulations booklet and learn/memorise for the exam anyways.

What I hadn’t planned on was to wake up with this pain in my heart because “she” was not with me. Or rather “she” would not be with me. She’d be playing mas in the streets and I’d… I’d be doing the above.

Everything, everything I would’ve given up to be with her. There I said it out to the universe. I felt like I could give up every living belief I knew/trusted/walked with to be with her.

Pray that that feeling never overtakes you.
That feeling of lack-of-oxygen because you can’t be with the one you… love.
Love? I can’t even be sure that it’s the same with her and I’m bidding my time, holding my tongue and hoping against hope that when I do open my mouth it will be right.

It happened this way.
It was Carnival Saturday evening. I’m at the grocery getting my vitals. Now usually, if I don’t have a car I’d just pay a taxi to take me back home – give him a lil $45/$50 ya know. Saturday however, the cars were… otherwise antisocial and I cursed. Used words I claim don’t exist. When I did get one, a maxi impatiently honked at us and I cursed more. My chest was ready to burst and at that moment how I wished I knew a spell to cast on the damn maxi conductor for aggravating me more.

It happened this way and I wonder if this falling has to do with a girl or if the girl has to do with the falling. Same difference really but it scared me… it scares me how far I’ve come (or gone for that matter).

It happened this way that this morning I wake with a joy in my soul, hear a news report (fight in Poison's Band) get scared, sent her a text (tell me you’re ok tell me you’re safe), get no response and decide F-DAT! Till she walks in, tired but safe and says she didn’t play with Poison (switched Sunday night to another band) and I’m like “Thank you God”

It happened this way… tears in my eyes and I still don’t know what happened.

Bye

Bless

Tracy j h

What is your Real Name?

2006-02-20T05:07:00.000-08:00

In X-2 (Xmen: United), there's a scene where Magneto
turns to John (Pyro a mutant who can manipulate fire).
The following is part of their conversation:

Magneto: What's your name?
John: John
Magneto: What's your REAL NAME John?
John: (after a pause, looking at the lighter in his
hand) Pyro…

The conversation continues about how powerful he could
be etc.

My point... my question to you is:
What is your real name? What do you call yourself?
I call myself a poet. I say "dapoetspeaks" and it
means something! Well, at least to me...

What about you? Do you have a name for yourself or are
you just walking around accepting what everyone else
feels compelled to call you?

Peace!
T.J.H

__________________________________________________

Take One...

2006-02-17T06:57:00.000-08:00

Panadol
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

feel free.
take one.
relieve your stress with Panadol
munch on a Fresh Express
have a blessed day...

(Fresh Express makes salads, wraps and generally healthy food served daily... and fresh)

2006-02-15T12:49:00.000-08:00

Today In The Universe

What happened?
Lended my theories on certain matters Biblical (specail appearance on this blog soon)

Got some campaigns approved by the CDCreative Director.

Got some classic Sting & The Police music !Been jumping up and down singing every little thing she does is magic!
I also got Toto I blessed the rain down in AAAAFRICAAA :-)

saw her again... acted causually cynical... but still, saw her again

Finishing up the day with some Nina Simone and Queen Latifah - Jazz (Dana Owens Album)

heading home in 5, 4, 3, 2...

Blessings bloggers!

Want... not just Need

2006-02-14T05:01:00.000-08:00

loveactually
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

So this morning in the midst of... well me, I remembered an old gospel song that [to me] is the best gospel love/worship song I knew while growing up.

There's a part that says "I just want to be where you are, dwelling daily in your presence.... I just want to be, I just want to be with You."

WANT! Not just need... but WANT! There’s an actual desire at work here.

Need is out of necessity. When you are ill, you NEED to take anti-biotics, there's no choice there. But WANT implies free-will/choice/desire. I want to spend time with you. I want to go out of my way for your sake - there's no real necessity but I choose to because of the love that I have for you!

Now don't twist my words – I’m not saying that you shouldn't need people, please not at all, but wanting is a desire that you can run to with both hands open.

People need God - Y? Fear of hell? Need a miracle? How bout just… wanting God?
You need your guy/girl - Y? They make you "complete"? (And PS: no mortal should ever have that power) For show? Y do u need them? When was the last time you just WANTED them? Just because...

Want - free will/choice... desire!
Need - necessity/must have! Yes the two are partners but WANT fuels the NEED...
Want more!

I am the Prisoner

2006-02-10T10:24:00.000-08:00

mesign
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

blah blah blah thoughts blah blah blah and actions. yadda yadda yadda trapped by what we say, what we feel! yadda yadda blah blah must break free blah blah blah from whatever this is that yadda yadda yadda I've seem to lock myself into

I am a Prisoner...
Or am I?
yadda!

We are Prisoners...

2006-02-07T07:34:00.000-08:00

buddha
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

At Home!

behind closed doors
behind closed hearts
where noone sees
life up - side - down
this - side - up... to something!

5577106 We Are Prisoners...
Or Are We?

We are Prisoners...

2006-02-06T06:29:00.000-08:00

tusca02
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

With a Hope!

A hope that reminds us that every bond can be broken! Every chain will fall and freely to Zion we will trod.

5577106 We Are Prisoners...
Or Are We?

We are Prisoners...

2006-02-03T08:50:00.000-08:00

dave
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Now What? Oh gosh, what now!
I was born free - got tangled - was freed - only to be a prisoner again?

5577106 We Are Prisoners...
Or are we?
©

We are Prisoners...

2006-02-02T12:33:00.000-08:00

adanna
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

With a pill to swallow!

We are Prisoners... what a pill to swallow?!
They say. They believe. They think that I Am.

5577106 We are Prisoners...
or are we?

We are Prisoners

2006-02-01T04:50:00.000-08:00

asma
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

In Hiding.
In Seclusion,
In waiting.
In waiting,
In waiting, till our time has come.

5577106 We are Prsioners...

Or are we?

We are Prisoners

2006-01-31T06:40:00.000-08:00

mark
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

36 hr days
technology rides our backs
as we
try to
work miracles.
Walk on Water. Part Seas.

Save Clients

5577106 - We Are Prisoners...
Or Are We?

2006-01-30T04:00:00.000-08:00

What really matters?

in the end
neither the money nor the power
the style of dress or curl of hair
the car and the the commotion (that follows)
the investments or your inventory...

in the end
nothing really matters
except
the way we live (d) on the planet.

others living for us?
or US living for others?

Blessings!

Mute (Stick break in we ears)

2006-01-25T12:21:00.000-08:00

mystic tv
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Words and images grace the screen
But expressions remain clueless
As the mute button is pressed.

We hear but don’t listen…
To our hearts, the one part
That shouts to the top of our minds
LISTEN!
But there is no giving, for the mute button is pressed.

Mouth forms verbs.
Syllables, vowels, and adjectives.
But to us it stays as numbing chatter as we continue
To not stop
Pause and add volume
to what is really being said.

Stubborn will, will not even allow subtitles
To tell us, what she says
What HE says…
What they mean (and then we claim Life is unkind and mean).

And so it goes that as we walk on by
Turning a deaf ear and a blind eye
To the reality… the gravity of the situation,
We as a nation
Head further down Chaos Street
To repeat… the same mistakes
All because stick break in we ears
Our mute button has been broken for years

what will you bring back from the mountain?

2006-01-23T10:16:00.000-08:00

This has been playing in my mind for a while so I got
to share:

The story goes of Moses who went up to the Mount of
God (post red sea account). There he spent about 40
days with God.

It wasn't the first time he spent time up there, but
when Moses returned he always had something for to the
PEOPLE (Israel).

1. He went up to the Mount... and came back with the ten
Commandments
2. He went up to the Mount... and came back with his face radiating for days on end!

There are these times in our lives when we experience
personal enlightenment (whether in church, while
sleeping or just casually hitting the streets). What
is our next move? What then do we do with this new
thing?

1. Keep it to us?
2. Or Share it with the people?
Encourage. Elevate.
Bring the sense of the Divine to men.

So what will you bring back from the mountain?

Tracy j H

Broke Back Brain Cells

2006-01-18T07:32:00.000-08:00

red horizon
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

I am going to see Brokeback...
There are reasons surrounding my decision.

But it strikes me as hilarious the sudden outcry about THIS movie by people who just... well.

No consideration is made to the artistic genius of Lee (Crouching Tiger, Sense & Sensibility, Hulk) or the talents of these writers/actors. We by pass this i favour of the bashing. Just like we by pass the Hypocrisy of Carnival - exposing your true self for two days then going for ashes on the third.

Broke Back Brain Cells swimming round

Mirrored Energy

2006-01-16T09:26:00.000-08:00

When I found out that Marilyn Manson was a Capricorn I
was to say the least… disturbed. It fact I was
appalled. Capricorns are generally insane from time to
time – yes, but Marilyn is just done right wacko!

I surmised (eventually) that Marilyn is on the
outside, what we Capricorns probably are on the
inside, i.e.: loud,
fire-truck-the-whole-world-and-die-cause-I’m-the-only-one-that-makes-sense-you-turd…
people (probably).

When I discovered I had the urge to knock down my
rather talented and (ok) cute looking co-worker for
denying the presence of her own genius, I took a step
back and realised that, well, I was looking at my own
reflection in this here earth pond.

See this is where society is messed up. We are
(literally) the mirror image of each other and we fail
to see this. It is our own reflection we see in the
faces of other people. It is our own energy that we
project onto those whose space we invade (vice-versa).

We do it all the time!

Fear attracts Fear (in one or more forms)
Insecurity attracts Insecurity (see above)
The homeless and the homeowner are one.

We think to ourselves that we are above their level
and cannot be classified as X or Y like “those people”
with “that attitude” but I’m willing to bet that we
aren’t that different. That maybe inside of the heart
of hearts we ARE and THAT is what is being projected
unto the outside world.

“But I am not venomous, vengeful, selfish or spiteful!
Are you telling me that I have this in my soul?”

I’m telling you that we may not be all that different.

A bing! thing...

2006-01-13T06:39:00.000-08:00

chamber of secrets
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Out from a bit of impatience came
A Bing! Thing.

A bing! thing is the sum total of the unintentioned.

ME:
• loading up a picture
• getting peeved with the length of time taken
• stopping it in mid-load :-)
• getting this totally new thing.

Is it a doorway? An opening?
Something's clicking in my head - don't know what really but - I like it!

A Bing! Thing

Midweek Movie Matinee

2006-01-11T11:38:00.000-08:00

green fizz
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

It's A Wonderful Life!

She comes to my senses. Literally.

She walked into my room friday last and her fragrance was... heightening.

She smokes and the scent mixes with her skin and honestly I could just wrap myself around her.

It's a wonderful life I tell you! Only when the feeling is strong can lotion and nicotine make you spin.

Drunken Monkey on Mystic TV

2006-01-10T04:41:00.000-08:00

At Zen
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Lust is a Beverage...
Drink Responsibly.

Hate. Love.

2006-01-09T08:34:00.000-08:00

Matrix Revolutions:
You believe in Karma? - Neo
Karma is just a word, it is the connection behind it that
matters. - The Exile

People cringe at the word but if it doesn't stir us
into action then it becomes... useless.
It becomes just another word.

Coming up next: Enemy of the State

2006-01-06T09:55:00.000-08:00

enemy of the state
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Invisible...
In visible sight of all and still
Invisible...

Now Showing: Pride... The Ultimate Prejudice

2006-01-05T11:19:00.000-08:00

pride
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Yummy Crow

on the menu today is crow
crawl and get it...

how would you like your crow today?
circumstance is the maitre'd
that sees you across the room
and is bent at all costs to serve you.

25:11:04

12:25 Government Programme

2006-01-04T10:25:00.000-08:00

govt prog
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

On Mystic TV

Distinguished Gentlemen...
Discuss Policies
Debate Philosophies
Strategise Tomorrow
Create Confusion
Rend Hearts
Mend Ways
Part Ways
With Smiles and Shakes
While the "real politicians"....
Drive Cars
Flock Bars
Blame Others
Do Nothing

Regular Programme

2006-01-03T05:22:00.000-08:00

mystic tv
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Welcome to the new year and our regular or rather irregular programming!

Blessings to you and yours for 2006.
May you be surrounded by Divine Peace, Wisdom and covered with Christ's Protection!

Welcome to 2006!

Keyboard

2005-12-22T03:44:00.000-08:00

red horizon, originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Of late I feel the need to esc.
I've shifted from the path that I started on [this I know].
I don't want to think I'm losing control
But that seems to be the most appropriate option right now
I need to delete these feelings and return to my point of origin
Return to the statutes and commands before I F1.
Help.
I wanna go home.
I'm not too sure I was ready for this explorer bit
Maybe I allowed too many symbols to enter my spirit
I need space to make things clear.

© 22:12:05

2005-12-21T11:38:00.000-08:00

Shooting Salvation

3 rolls.
72 exposures.
countless memories.

When I started shooting, I needed pictures for my Mystic Tv Project.
I was very careful not to waste any of my shots on "useless" imagery - this was important.

I now realise that there is no such thing when it comes to expressing yourself. Some how that sounds clichéd but the fact is, I feel released... when I shoot.

Now granted, there still lies in me a hesitation to take certain shots but, of all the dumb things I do, of all the silly things I spend my money on - one roll of film doesn't seem a lot to spend, not when it brings me closer to... better vibes.

Its like Shooting Salvation - one snap at a time (if at all that's possible).

Say Cheese! Life is all around just waiting to be developed

melt-down

2005-12-19T12:05:00.000-08:00

somewhere in the script i am supposed to give a flying
one..
but somehow - i don't think so.

must think positive.
must overcome.
it is the will of the Righteous One to overcome.

__________________________________________________
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2005-12-16T09:50:00.000-08:00

5577106

On a whim, I got a piece of rectangle board and on the white side wrote: 5577106 - R U THE PRISONER?
then I pretty much went around snapping people (with said sign) all over the agency

hmmmm
we'll see where it goes.

Advertisment (part 02)

2005-12-07T12:06:00.000-08:00

another splot of red
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Music:
Foreboding

F.V.O:
I remember tossing and turning for hours at night. I could hear the throbbing noises of my heart and … it used to scare me. Really. So
many voices, always worrying if tomorrow could be any worse.

M.V.O:
It was the anxiety and the sweaty palms that used to freak me out. Every time I felt insecure I’d either curl up on the inside or lash out
like a… cobra or a rabid dog or something.

F.V.O:
Then I discovered God’s Love.

Anncr:
You don’t have to suffer from anxiety, insecurity, greed, pain or anguish in silence anymore. Introducing God’s Love.

Music:
Slow and cheerful – a relief almost.

Anncr:
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F.V.O:
WOW! What a difference God’s love can make!

M.V.O:
Yeah! It’s like having a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. Thanks God!

Anncr:
God’s Love is also good for mild to acute depression, heartache, uncontrollable lust, rage and so much more! And best of all, God’s Love is free. Available in Original Eternity and Reconciliation.

(Quickly) Side effects include real laughter, a free spirit and the knowledge that no matter what happens, you will be ok. As well as brilliant smiles on Mondays. God’s Love is recommended for everyone who will accept Him.

Both:
God’s Love… Divinity makes the difference!

News in a Minute (on Mystic TV)

2005-12-06T13:41:00.000-08:00

Humans are the strangest of God’s Creations.

We sit and envy those… who sit and envy us :-)

funny.

T.J.H

Advertisment (part 01)

2005-12-02T10:02:00.000-08:00

a splot of red
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

(Anncr = Announcer)

Anncr:
Hey sore losers!

Music:
Happy and upbeat

Anncr:
Love is giving you a second chance!

S.F.X:
(oooooh)

Anncr:
That’s right! For a limited time only, you get a chance to win her heart just by being yourself!

S.F.X:
(aaaahhh)

Anncr:
It’s so easy! Just show her the real you, whatever that may be, and you just might get lucky! Prizes include a greater appreciation of who you are, love of your craft and a desire to know you better!

S.F.X:
(yaaay – clapping, cheering continues)

Anncr:
No gimmicks! No lies! Just YOU with a chance of a lifetime… happiness with the fantasy of your life!

But hurry! Love won’t last forever.
She may find some other bloke if you don’t play your cards right!

MTV weather Report

2005-12-01T10:51:00.000-08:00

mystic tv
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Yes John,
Looks like Man is expecting even more irregular patterns
Just waiting…
Praying, to beat down on his tiny little island

Faces are sunny
Although, there’s a tropical depression brewing in the centre of his heart.

Now If that’s left unchecked,
If that hits angry waters, it could shatter him!
Unveiling…. Revealing all the cracks in his system.

Spirits are dry.
Not a cloud, not a release in sight.
What he needs right now, is for Love
To reign down from on high…
Soaking him, before all vegetation dries up by numbness.

There’s a cold front coming in
From one of his friends…
God help his soul, this looks serious
As civility drops below minus 30.

But John, there’s a bright side!
If Man can get past this…
If he can board up
Shut up and stand firm.
If he realises this too, shall pass
And that God intended for his happiness to last…
Then seas should be back to normal
With tears less than two metres in open waters
And less that one metre in his most sheltered area!

Back to you John.

Public Service Announcement

2005-11-28T13:22:00.000-08:00

sounds like
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

(S.F.X- sound effects)

S.F.X:
Phone rings on the other end of line

Voice:
Welcome. Your call is very important to us. Please hold the line and someone will speak with you shortly.

Music:
Girl from Ipanema plays on phone line

Poet:
It’s funny really. It seems like we’re always waiting for something or someone aren’t we? Waiting for the traffic to quell. Waiting for a
lover or child… or friend to change their ways. Whatever the case, we’re just waiting

S.F.X:
Music stops

Poet:
And just when you think you’ve finally gotten through…

S.F.X:
Music plays another slow tune

Poet:
It’s the same thing all over again! Stueps!

Voice:
We appreciate you holding on. Your call is very important to us. Please stay on the line and someone will speak with you soon.

Poet
Hello? Anybody there? Anybody cares? Will somebody tell me why I’m still holding on to something that makes no sense? Please
somebody pick up on what I’m saying!

S.F.X:
Music stops. Phone rings and then…

Voice:
We’re sorry. Our offices are closed now. Good-bye.

S.F.X:
Busy tone echoes. End.

Infomercial

2005-11-21T12:11:00.000-08:00

mystic tv
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

(Anncr - announcr)
Cheesy Sales music plays in the background

Anncr:
Is your life ruled by the mundane? Tired of doing things one-way? Is your constant compulsion for truth and honesty making you the outcast among friends?

Well no more!

Music crescendos

Anncr:
Now, for a limited time only, add a little spice TO YOUR LIFE with a bag of LIES AND INNUENDOES!

Lies and innuendoes will make you the talk of the town and better with your buddies! And now, here to tell us more about this revolutionary self-destructive habit is Ms. Taken!

Ms. Taken:
Hi and welcome to a brave new world where lies and half truths rule the globe! Now I know you’re saying: “Ms. Taken, how do I know if
lies and innuendoes will work for me?” Well you can trust me it works! I started off with lies and I lost 40lbs of virtue! Then by
adding a few hints of sharply placed innuendoes to my diet, I became the bell of the ball! Sure I felt disillusioned at first, but once that conscience of mine died, I felt as good as new!

But don’t take my word for it. Hear what others are saying and when we return, we’ll bring on the creator of lies and innuendoes… Baal Z!

Cheesy Sales music plays in the foreground
Anncr:
All around the world, millions of people are experiencing the veiled benefits of telling lies and practicing libel innuendoes.

Customer 1:
When I started lying I couldn’t believe the benefits! I got the job of my dreams and all I had to do was lie about my age and education.

Customer 2:
Thanks to lies and innuendoes I was able to nab my boss’s position!

Customer 3:
I got this girl to sleep with me after only two dates thanks to lies and innuendoes!

Customer 4:
The best part was when I started lying to myself! I started to believe my own deception!

Anncr:
The secret to lies and innuendoes is to leave your self-depreciating soul open to the father of lies Baal Z! Whose sole purpose is to make
YOU feel so inadequate that you think you need his help to succeed!

Act now and join the millions of people already going to hell! We’ll also throw in half-truths at no extra cost! So go ahead, compromise a little? Why be lonely anymore? Lie and be agreeable today!

And best of all… ALL LIES ARE FREE! (Giggling to self)

Cheesy Sales music crescendo then fades.

Ms. Taken:
And we’re back with Baal Z! Now…
(Voice fades out)

Tracy J Hutchings
© 21:11:05

Now Showing...

2005-11-18T11:26:00.000-08:00

red horizon
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Event full Horizon

Tomorrow starts today.
It is unknown... do not plan it.
It is moving... do not stand still.
It is the sum total... do not lose the equation.
It is full - it is the Event full Horizon
Tomorrow starts Today

Tune In...

2005-11-17T13:10:00.000-08:00

mystic tv
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Broadcasting LIVE from the edge of your soul
the mystic tv transmits thoughts taken from the air and rests them here!

Pictures. Thoughts. Ideals.

wait a while... the show soon unfolds

Lust n Love

2005-11-16T11:52:00.000-08:00

In the traditional sense, the concept of LUST seems to have negative
connotations...

But
After you've "found" her,
After you two have hooked up,
After the stardust FINALLY leaves your eyes, do you still LUST after her?

Do you still feel an ounce of passion when she's near?
Do you take the time to feel the clichéd electricity when you touch?
Do you still feel the need to run away to a back room/cabinet/closet or whatever?

Do you still LUST her?
Or have you [both] arrived at the usual state of comfortability in the
relationship?

Never stop Lusting after her [him]... even while you're in Love.

Tracy J H
(c) 16:11:05

2005-11-15T09:13:00.000-08:00

Earplugs:

He walks through the busy earth
[picture Independence Square on a Friday]
trying to have a conversation with anybody, but we all have earplugs in our ears.

HE sees us... we see HIM.
We might even acknowledge HIM but we walk past
with earplugs not really hearing a word he says.

Lips move without sound.

The question is:
Is there anyone who wants to have a conversation?
Is there anyone who wants to hear?

Tracy j H

© 15:11:05

GROWING through...

2005-11-11T04:30:00.000-08:00

So Israel was in Egypt enslaved for 400 + years. STRESS! PAIN! Serious aggravation et al!

But check this... while they were GOING THROUGH suffering, they were growing!

A little background - when Israel entered Goshen they were a small band of shepherds. 400 years and a couple of Pharaohs later, they were enslaved... but they were huge! By the time of the Exodus, they were a "nation". People, livestock, everything had grown into something more... something powerful.

We go through so much crap on a daily basis. So many people try to force their pain and their jargon on our backs - making us slaves to their will. But even though we be going through... remember that YOU ARE GROWING into something more... something powerful.

Yeah you probably know this already - but it doesn't hurt to remind yourself of the truth.

Peace!

Tracy j H
© 11:11:05

Stages of Terror

2005-11-03T12:53:00.000-08:00

Pt1.
They say do it even though you’re fearful.
They say fear is an evil spirit that invokes emotion.
They say fear stunts growth…
All these things I know and stil, l sit here.
Maybe she’s right – maybe I do think too much.

Pt2.
The sound in my mind tells me to step up.
In the calmness of itself I hear, I see cricket
analogies.
The batsman must walk unto the pitch in order to bat.
He cannot stand there wondering if he will fail – he
must go.
Fours, sixes or duck… he must go. I must go.

Pt3.
The nervousness in my system threatens to jump out and
swallow me whole.
Yet the room, the conquest no longer seems so large.
Air condition magnifies the cold emanating from my
hands.
I say to her “are you excruciatingly busy?” No –
Step up to the pitch…

Pt4.
Dance with me.
What?
I realise I didn’t get a dance from you on Monday
night so –
Laughs
And suddenly, it isn’t a terror anymore.

Pt5.
What good does it serve, when the night calls, when
the night comes?
And disillusionment and disappointment slip into bed
As you realise this feeling, this terror is the
unfulfilled.
This terror is … “What If?” commonly disguised as
fear?

Get on the cricket pitch…

Tracy J H
©03:11:05

Open

2005-10-28T15:15:00.000-07:00

the doorway
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

I was safe. I was in love with a dream and that was ok. I knew that the dream was too high in Heaven to touch and that was ok. I was safe. I had no real qualms, no real issues, and no overly messy stress. I was safe!

And then one day, some stroke of Wisdom told me that “hey! You need to open up to new opportunities! The right girl is out there waiting for you.” And I listened. I… opened up!

Open up to new opportunities and let consequence throw a fast ball at you from the opposite end of the cricket field… defenceless and “open” to everything.

So here I am, moving from day to day “open” to everything the universe throws at me. Like her. Here I am high, low, tight chested, cynical, romantic, jealous, righteous, conflicted… and human.

I hate being human. Not in the literal sense, but the thing about being human is the appropriate falling for every rising. The Ying in my Yang, if you will.

If I stay in my dream I will never be truly hurt, but at the same time I may not be truly happy – miss out the best thing in my life. Of course, on that journey to find, I leave myself open to the elements… in whatever form they come.

A falling in the Rising… Too much Ying in my Yang!

I open myself to God – this leads to decisions to be made that my oft-stubborn heart does not hear.
I open myself to poetry – my writing gets better but the thoughts sometimes scare me.
I open myself to Wisdom – but wisdom often comes from Knowledge and Knowledge – experience so…

The flipside to the gold coin is this:
I was safe but was I satisfied?
So maybe all this tight-chested drama DOES SERVE some purpose!

safe but not satisfied! Open but defenceless

Tracy j h
©28:10:05

the sword - formation

2005-10-24T14:10:00.000-07:00

swirl
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

another from "behind my eyes"
---------------------------------------

There was a medical symbol:
• Two snakes wrapped around pole
• There is a wing on either side (of pole)

The symbol turned upside down and became a sword. The snake's eyes are pure jade on the sword (now somewhat golden).

Beautiful sword from a medical symbol

I remember the height of my anger; I remember throwing the sword away lest I use it on someone (s).

Images?
Thoughts?
Things from subconscious level?
Or just... a sword?

Tracy J H
24:10:05

Beneath My Eyes

2005-10-20T12:53:00.000-07:00

swirl
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

random thought about things seen when i close my eyes
--------------------------------------------------------------------------
There is a road.
A narrow dirt road, with grass on either sides of it.
The dirt is a dusty brown yellow something. At the end of the road, there are two poles – one on either side of the “grassy bank” as it were.

I move slowly to it.
I feel myself rushing closer to that edge,
rushing the scene and I am told to slow down.

I see images of similar and dissimilar things that rest in my subconscious
and I am told to focus on the road (sounds like my driving instructor).

The road ends and there is a steep decline.
It’s as if the world really is flat.

Lost To Me

2005-10-19T13:28:00.000-07:00

Straddle the fence…
Curiosity grows erect and trembles
as passion takes over logic
and reason is denied and replaced with temptation
so grand
so powerful
infinite finiteness, whose life covers your mouth with
a sated kiss till weakness is all you know in the
confines of your bones…

Tracy J Hutchings
© 19:10:05

Heaven only knows the full meaning of certain thoughts. this one though "inspired" remains lost to me.

Doves & Blackbirds 2

2005-10-18T04:33:00.000-07:00

Wisdom rests his head near my ear, a gentleman Dove
rarely screeches.
And when he flies, the crow cries, but Peace never
leaves his side.
My Heavenly Dove, sent from above.

What’s this I fear?
There’s a picking near my ear and I feel it ever so
clear:
Insecurity, Jealousy and the whiff of something more;
Strains of Poe filter through, “never more”.

Rage rises to his perch. Behold black wings spread.
Halted he remains as my Dove screeches instead:
“Let Wisdom take over, from the mind on your shoulder,
to the shoulder of your mind.”

And I see it as clear as day
‘choice’ winds blow my way
decision time is near… CHOOSE.
The Emissary of Peace, or The Emblem of Fear.

Wake up!
The trance is over! No one lays on my shoulder.
Yet Wisdom and Peace and Fear still hover… is it over?

Tracy j Hutchings
© 30:09:05

Doves & Blackbirds 1

2005-10-14T05:42:00.000-07:00

I stand in the centre of two factions…
Opposite, different, dissimilar…and winged.
I stand in the centre of two factions…
The Dove And The Blackbird.

My shoulder, like my mind,
lay open to receive the goodness of what God has to
offer.
And so they settle, fluttering feathers come to a halt
as Dove imparts Wisdom and Blackbird squeals.

My rage rises and touches his feet
And black air, black wings spread out.
Now fly my aggravation! Destroy the hateful nation!

Wisdom remains silent. Never moving. Never flinching.
Standing still on the shoulder of my mind.

the conclusion of the matter, next...

2005-10-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

Alive

Alive

Joints hurt

Brain Aches

Too much thinking

Too little doing

Must Awaken

Move Forward

Be ALIVE

Be who I am

Must Choose

Live or Die

Dove or Black bird

Alive...

Change is calling. Must shed skin, shake off this (or these) feeling (s) within.

2005-10-03T13:12:00.000-07:00

Death must not take one ounce of you alive.

blessings!

Sweet Poison

2005-09-29T13:48:00.000-07:00

I bought her a rose...
A single white rose (freshly ordered by the company)
Attached a card with the note "Just Because..."
Left it at reception. it now sits at her desk.

And they say you're gonna get hurt
And they say you're in too deep
And they say you're doing this all wrong...
And they say... you're gonna get hurt.

Still I take another sip of sweet poison.
Sweet to the tongue and bitter to the heart,
when jealousy and insecurity takes over.

Still I take another sip of sweet poison.
Telling myself that it's ok to be burned -
the ends justify the means
The consequences are minimal if the smile on my face
stays at 100.15 maximum.

Still I sip sweet poison
Holding her hand in the morning
Clutching my stomach in the evening
and waiting for the cold sweat to pass at night.

A sucker for punishment?
An optimist swimming in naivety?
They say you're gonna get hurt while I sip some more
of this poison.

Faith

2005-09-23T10:09:00.000-07:00

Faith in anything outside of God and the conscience
ability to push your self forward, is hazardous to
your brain cells.

We have faith in so many things that our very
existence seems meaningless and frivolous without said
things that ARE meaningless and frivolous!

I lost my phone. My precious Motorola v300 camera
phone and even though it wasn’t working – couldn’t
call out or text anyone – it was still an integral
part of my life. Even if I’m going to the
neighbourhood shop, I’d take the phone into my hands
because I considered it most precious to me.

Ah, but now, it is gone and I am like a fish out of
water to some extent. That phone held pictures and
numbers of peoples/places and things that meant a lot
to me. I wish my phone were here…

The funny thing is, whenever I got a new number, I
automatically put it in the phone without so much as a
second thought without even using the God-given brain
I have to memorise such numbers. I had Faith that the
numbers were safe as long as my phone was safe. I
believed that the phone would take care of that which
I held precious without considering that it was really
me/my memory banks 0- not the phone – that was
entrusted with that responsibility.

I jokingly say that the universe knew I needed a new
phone, but I miss it because of what it represented….
A safety net I guess – I dunno really. But what I do
know is that trying to remember even the simplest of
numbers has become a veritable nightmare because I put
phone over memory bank.

Faith in anything outside of God and the conscience
ability to push your self forward, is hazardous and
maybe even remarkably detrimental to your mental
State.

__________________________________________________

R.I.S.E

2005-09-20T05:17:00.000-07:00

When I Realise I can Surrender Everything... that I
need not always be at war, then Life will be a lot
more like Living.

When I Remember I am Special to Elohim... I will seek
him more and not the constant approval of mere
mortals. For though they oft times mean well, their
eyes remain blind to how Elohim sees me.

When I Rely on the Intuitive Spirit, Everything will play out perfectly. For Spirit knows a thing or two
that I fail to understand but being the Teacher He is,
He goes over the lesson one more time.

When I learn, then I R.I.S.E.

__________________________________________________

Sham - man

2005-09-16T12:36:00.000-07:00

do u see the realness?

The smile he carries wraps round bout him like a
cloak.

His lips spew forth magical words that bubbles in the
human heart.

Village teacher never learning. Peacemaker never
pacified.

Something about him is as real as the mask he carries.

He is not a Shaman... he is the sham-man.

do u see the realness?

__________________________________

Happiness

2005-09-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

• a dollar sale with friends (thank you El)
• lunch with sweet people
• waking up to find all your limbs going what they are SUPPOSED TO BE DOING!
• Ave Maria for no real reason
• thinking of Christmas in September
• playing Christmas Carols in September
• looking into the face of those that inspires you
• looking into the face of the one who MEANS SOMETHING to you
• the knowledge that the day is NOT beyond God's Control
• breakfast
• lunch
• laughter
• peace (yes. a strong sense of peace can be real happiness)
• making someone's day
• no strings attached
• pure motives
• freedom to be
• being a grown-up without losing the kid
• saying I LOVE YOU
• hearing God say it back to you audibly (his voice)
and in-audibly (sunrise, wind, rain, music, everything!)

__________________________________________________

the women of my life series END

2005-09-09T06:33:00.000-07:00

the doorway
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

They have all opened a door for me...
They have all opened a door to me.

The value of friendship.
The power of love.
The stupidity of love.
Understanding women.
Understanding myself.
What works and what doesn't.
Teachers and assignments (one day I’ll explain that theory)

In the quest to be a better person... a better man, they -and countless others - make the trip worthwhile.

Ayanna, Mod (buddha), aunty-Sheila, Savi, Charlene (d other Capricorn), Shelly, Paula (u rock babe!) Reshma, sparkle, Candace, Sabita, René, Wendy... those mentioned over the series and those too numerous to mention

They have all opened a door for me...
They have all opened a door to me.

the women in my life series pt09...

2005-09-07T11:29:00.000-07:00

Marissa…

The story of our friendship began with a mutual
dislike (and I’ll leave it there).
But I have to tell you, over the years, I would
be a little more twisted without that chick…

A listening ear without fail.
A grudgeless soul. A guileless spirit.

The drink of water that refreshes after I am poured
out…

Thx for her!

Blessings to her!

______________________________________________________

the women in my life series pt08...

2005-09-02T12:56:00.000-07:00

René...

( I figure since I'm baring my soul, might as well
bare all. FunnyI wrote this for for her once)

It is better to write than it is to speak at times.
The pen understands what the tongue doesnt have a
clue about at times.

So heres what the pen says:

You intrigue me beyond everything, you intrigue me

Ive been carrying that thought for the last little
while but never seems to be a good time to reveal that
to you, so when I did last week, it came out as a
by-the-way concept when you deserve more than that.

I tell myself that I rush into too much, that I make
too much mistakes, but its like this: if I know that
the possibility exists whats one more?

Trying to sound intelligent every time Im with you
and what I get instead is a babbling fool who craves
you.

Funny. A speechless poet. Its classic really.

Now this is where I do that whole adult thing and say
this: Renee Dass I like you. Theres something about
that smile that I cant help but adore. You just are
and I cant help but wonder.

But at the end of the day, it is useless if you dont
feel the same. And thats cool too.
Thats cool too. Really.

__________________________________________________
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the women of my life series pt07

2005-09-01T12:17:00.000-07:00

green fizz
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Elspeth....

(As I write this, Coldplay's Clocks is playing in the background. perfect!)

This picture is labelled "green fizz". It gives me that Sprite feeling. Quite like Elspeth.

There isn't a thing that she does that isn't refreshingly real. A universe of talent that stretches from one field to the other, her very life is (I believe) continuously bubbling over... refreshing those she comes in contact with. See for yourself: www.nowiswow.blogspot.com

Tracy J Hutchings
© 01:09:05

the women in my life series pt06...

2005-08-30T13:38:00.000-07:00

Reshma…

Simplicity never felt so good.

Diet coke by her window, she opens her heart and smile
to those around her.

The kind of girl you want to wake up next to…
Make breakfast for…
Bring it back to satin sheets…
And play with her hair while she sips on some coffee.
Steam tickling her nose…

(It’s fun being a writer :->)

The girl you WANT TO do right by

Resh…

the women of my life series pt05

2005-08-26T12:49:00.000-07:00

Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Avalon (girl at left)...

The original Scooby Snack.
The Halloween child with the comical grin.

There are days where (honestly) I wonder about her. But friendship beats logic anyday.

A gem of a girl of whom I am happy to have in my universe...

Tracy J Hutchings
© 26:08:05

the women of my life series pt04

2005-08-25T14:25:00.000-07:00

asma, av & tracy
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Asma... (girl @ left)

imperfect perfection.
the diva without doubt.
She Soul who guided me back to light though she doesn't know it.

the ideal.... ideal.

how i miss her.

Tracy J H

© 25:08:05

the women of my life series pt03

2005-08-24T09:34:00.000-07:00

madam butterfly
Originally uploaded by dapoetspeaks.

Leizelle…

My sister.
My half side.
Obliquely opposite and yet similar in spirit.

Perfect Capricorn.
One day younger than me.
An artist with no end.

I hope she sees that….
I hope she understands how limitless her potential, her vibe, her thought.

Tracy J Hutchings

© 24:08:05

the women in my life series pt02...

2005-08-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

Margaret-Ann…

I call her Buddha for she is wise
I call her Virgo for she is irritating.
I call her Beautiful for such is her spirit.
I call her Strong for… that is precisely what/who she
is.
I call her Exemplary, for that is what a Mother should
be.

I call her Mod, because after 23 years, it still feels
most comfortable.

Tracy J Hutchings

__________________________________________________

the women in my life series pt01...

2005-08-22T12:36:00.000-07:00

Wisdom…

I met her in heaven, just before I was assigned a
home.

She spoke volumes.

Volumes on God.
Volumes on Love.
Volumes on Destiny and reminded me that as long as I
sought her out, she would find me out.

The first woman in my life, created from the Master
himself… I honour Wisdom.

____________________________________________________

Peeling...

2005-08-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

My skin is peeling.

I stood in the sunlight this morning and realised… the
skin on my hands are peeling. There are two shades.
The old one has a dry almost caked look to it but the
new skin is pink and fresh... and nice.

It’s like this piece I wrote once about decaying, in
which I said that every day I decay so that the old
skin, the old me, the old mindsets will die and new
ones will develop.

I wonder [if only briefly before I go back to the
hectic world]:
Is my soul peeling?
Is my spirit peeling?
Is my mind peeling?

Is the only change going on an outward appearance with
no inward relevance?

My skin is peeling.

__________________________________

my name is...

It's been a while...

Fiction(?)

Fiction(?)

As it turns out...The Universe Still Works

100... +

It is finished [or is it broken?]

I couldn't be satisfied

Pin-Pointing You

I Smell Yesterday

Let the angels minister to you

Saving You

A moment of silence 03

A moment of silence 02

A moment of silence 01

Imagination

Remembering... him

Carnival Confessions

What is your Real Name?

Take One...

Want... not just Need

I am the Prisoner

We are Prisoners...

We are Prisoners...

We are Prisoners...

We are Prisoners...

We are Prisoners

5577106 We are Prsioners...

We are Prisoners

Save Clients

What really matters?

Mute (Stick break in we ears)

what will you bring back from the mountain?

Broke Back Brain Cells

Mirrored Energy

A bing! thing...

Midweek Movie Matinee

Drunken Monkey on Mystic TV

Hate. Love.

Coming up next: Enemy of the State

Now Showing: Pride... The Ultimate Prejudice

Yummy Crow

12:25 Government Programme

Regular Programme

Keyboard

Shooting Salvation

melt-down

Advertisment (part 02)

News in a Minute (on Mystic TV)

Advertisment (part 01)

MTV weather Report

Public Service Announcement

Infomercial

Now Showing...

Tune In...

Lust n Love

Earplugs:

GROWING through...

Stages of Terror

Get on the cricket pitch…

Open

Open up to new opportunities and let consequence throw a fast ball at you from the opposite end of the cricket field… defenceless and “open” to everything.

A falling in the Rising… Too much Ying in my Yang!

safe but not satisfied! Open but defenceless

the sword - formation

Beneath My Eyes

Lost To Me

Doves & Blackbirds 2

Doves & Blackbirds 1

Alive

Sweet Poison

Faith

R.I.S.E

Sham - man

Happiness

the women of my life series END

the women in my life series pt09...

the women in my life series pt08...

the women of my life series pt07

the women in my life series pt06...

As it turns out...
The Universe Still Works